Many of you know that Madison has been a daddy's girl for quite some time. Like 7yrs!! Well lately she has become more of a mama's girl. I know she 8 1/2yrs old and I probably shouldn't call her that but that is totally what it feels like. When Madison was a baby she well was pretty much glued to me. David would try so hard to get her to love on him but she just would not have any of that! But man once our sweet baby girl was on the move daddy became "the man" and well this mama was left in their dust! I have to admit at times it hurt my feeling but I wouldn't change it for anything. They absolutely adore eachother and are two peas in a pod! Geez she spent so much time being a daddy's girl that she stopped looking like me and now looks like her daddy! :)
Lately Madison has been very attached to me. Came out of nowhere. I think I might have my mama's girl back. And it feels soooo good! I'm not sure excatly what is going on with her. She doesn't want to spend the night away from home and if she is at my grandma's or at my mom's she usually calls to say how much she misses me and wants to come home. Which is cute & annoying at the same time! I want her to be able to stay with others and not be afraid when she isn't at home. I'm 31 yrs old and still prefer to sleep at home rather than anywhere else and tend to get homesick pretty quickly. So I guess she might look like David but this girl has my feelings and quirks! OY, poor girl :) I'm guessing this is just a faze and sooner rather than later she'll be back to being a daddy's girl. But hey I'll take what I can get!
I.LOVE.THIS.GIRL
So I've been thinking that with the start of the new year I might have a few things I'd like to try and get accomplished.
1. I'd like to learn how to chill out a bit. Now for me that's a HUGE challenge. I'm a worrier. I worry about EVERYTHING and it really wears me down and puts me in a cranky mood. I really struggle with it and I'm hoping that I can at least work on it and get it more in control. You only live once and I surely don't need to be worrying all the time!
2. I'd like to work on being a better wife. No realationship is perfect and David and I have been through a lot. Marriage is not a walk in the park! But I don't say this enough, I'm pretty lucky.(yes I said it out loud, and Haley just fainted!!!) I have been able to stay at home for pretty much the last 8 1/2 yrs and take care of our 2 daughters. It's something that many people aren't able to do and I surely do not take it for granted. I'm super lucky that David is totally laid back and deals with my cleaning, laundry and OCD issues!!!! He laughs when I fall down but he always picks me up! I'm so not the easiest person to live with and although I drive him nuts he always comes home to me! After 5 1/2yrs of really tough grieving and missing our daughter we have definetly found our way back to eachother and for that I am forever grateful.
3. I'd like to become a better mom. I love being a mom, but I think since Olivia died I haven't done the best job. It's been a really rough 5 1/2 yrs for me. I feel like I have a lot of making up to do. I adore Madison and I love her more than anything in this world. She deserves everything and more........
I hope this new year brings many new joys and many many moments of love..................
