Sunday, July 10, 2011

Letting go

Letting go of someone you love is the most difficult decision one has to make. 7 years ago I had to say goodbye to Olivia. I wish I could say this day gets a little easier as the years go by, but I would be lying if I did. As I stood at her grave today I felt an overwhelming amount of sadnees & anxiety. This anniversary seemed a bit harder than the last few years. Maybe it's because we have added to our family. I think it hit me really hard how incomplete our family is without Olivia here. As I walked back to the car tears just poured down my face. It was like I was having a flashback to the day I had to leave the hospital for the last time and it was without Olivia. We made the choice 7 years ago to let Olivia go. I knew that it was time. That we had tried everything we possibly could. She had done the absolute best she could. 12 hours before she died I told her it was ok to let go. That we would be ok.

In my heart I know we made the right choice, but it doesn't make this day any easier.

1 comment:

  1. I have been thinking about you these last few days. It never does get easier ... just different.