Letting go

Letting go of someone you love is the most difficult decision one has to make. 7 years ago I had to say goodbye to Olivia. I wish I could say this day gets a little easier as the years go by, but I would be lying if I did. As I stood at her grave today I felt an overwhelming amount of sadnees & anxiety. This anniversary seemed a bit harder than the last few years. Maybe it's because we have added to our family. I think it hit me really hard how incomplete our family is without Olivia here. As I walked back to the car tears just poured down my face. It was like I was having a flashback to the day I had to leave the hospital for the last time and it was without Olivia. We made the choice 7 years ago to let Olivia go. I knew that it was time. That we had tried everything we possibly could. She had done the absolute best she could. 12 hours before she died I told her it was ok to let go. That we would be ok.

In my heart I know we made the right choice, but it doesn't make this day any easier.

Biopsy

Madison had a biopsy yesterday for the cyst that they found when she broke her arm several weeks ago. It was an outpatient procedure but it did require that Madison be put under. She did great! We will hopefully have the results by late next week.

Disney World

For Maddy's 10th birthday she got a very special gift. My mom treated us to a trip to Disney World. Our trip was fantastic! Maddy & Charlotte did great the whole trip from the plane rides to all the walking and warm weather. The kids got to swim in a beautiful pool at the resort and we also were able to visit a Disney water park which was awesome! Charlotte loves the water(thank goodness). We were so lucky to go on this trip and we can't thank my mom enough for such a wonderful gift and the awesome memories to go along with it.

Hope you enjoy the pictures

I'm back!

Oh my goodness. I'm sorry I've been terrible at keeping up with this blog. We have been without a computer for quite some time and well Miss Charlotte keeps me VERY busy :) And blogger has not been my friend the last few days as I try to update.


My goal for today is to get caught up! 

Lots of cute pics to come :)

Here's a sneak peak at the cuteness!

6 months old

Charlotte Grace turned 6 months old today. She is getting so big and is ready to be on the move.

6 month check up-
16 pounds 13 ounces(75%)
26 1/4 inches long(75%)

5 months old

Charlotte Grace turned 5 months old today!

Time seems to be flying by. Charlotte is keeping us very busy these days. She is growing like a weed. She weighed in yesterday at 15 pounds 10 ounces and 25 1/2 inches long. Charlotte is still not sleeping well and naps pretty much don't exsist in this house :( But her smile makes up for all the sleepless nights.

4 months old

Sorry this is a few days late. It's been a little hectic around here with Maddy and her broken arm & Charlotte being a little bit fussy.

Charlotte turned 4 months old on 03/28/11

13 pounds 11 oz
25 inches long

Maddy's rough weekend

Maddy has officially broken her first bone :(

I got a call Saturday afternoon that Maddy had fallen off a skateboard at her friend's house. David, myself & Charlotte drove over immediately to our friend's Tina & CJ's house to find Maddy VERY upset & in a LOT of pain. We decided it was best to head over to Children's ER & have them check her out. Thank goodness we did! Maddy broke her humerous bone. It's the bone in-between your elbow & shoulder. Ouch!!! When the looked at the x-ray they also discovered a cyst on her bone. This is where I really started to sweat & feel sick to my stomach. They could not confirm at that time if it was a tumor, just a benign cyst or anything for that matter. The ortho surgeon came in and thought it was best to do a CT scan & get a better look. Maddy got an IV & morphine(2doses) and they placed a temporary mold on her right arm. Then it was off to CT. She did great through all of it!! We were discharged without any CT scan results because it was not only a weekend but night time too. I got a call this afternoon from our pediatrician and she got the CT scan results. What Maddy has is a unicermal bone cyst( I think that is the correct spelling, I'm typing in bed & I am to lazy to go find my post it with the correct spelling!!. It's non cancerous and nothing to really worry about. It occurs in kids from ages 5-15 years old. There is a slight possibility Maddy would need to have it removed but that is up to the ortho surgeon. We have an appt for this Thursday with the surgeon to get Maddy's more permanent cast. She will have to wear it for 6-8 weeks. I believe Maddy is actually getting a splint instead of a cast because of where the broken bone is. Maddy slept great last night, thanks to the morphine & Norco. She was up & moving around today but still very very sore & tired. she's going to try & go to school in the morning but we will have to see how she feels. I don't think she will ever skateboard again!! ;)

Colic sucks!

Just thought I'd stop by and apolgize for being a terrible blogger. But sweet little Charlotte has terrible colic and well I don't get much time to do anything. Right now she is in my lap and is fussy, VERY fussy! If colic wasn't bad enough she has terrible reflux too. Poor thing, I will be calling the GI doctor in the morning to see if we can try a new medicine, Zantac is just not enough :(

Charlotte has her 4 month check up on Friday morning. Can you believe she is almost 4 months old???

Hope everyone has good night, sleep a little extra for me! :)

3 months

Charlotte Grace is 3 months old today. She is such a love bug. I can't believe she is 3 months old already. I wish I could slow down time and that she would stay this little forever!

One Month

December 28, 2010

Charlotte Grace at one month old

sisters

My heart melts every time the girls curl up together. Madison has been such a great big sister to Charlotte. She loves to spend time with her and helps me change diapers and feeds her too! How lucky am I? Look at how cute they are :)

Charlotte Grace

On November 28, 2010 at 10:24am we welcomed Charlotte Grace into our family. She weighed in at 6lbs 12oz and was 19 inches long. She had a beautiful head of dark brown hair and the cutest chubby checks! I had the best delivery anyone could ever as for.

Charlotte was born 5 weeks premature. Since Charlotte was arriving early the NICU was called for delivery. Charlotte was having a little trouble breathing and wasn't quite responding the way they would like her to. They worked on her for about 30 minutes and then allowed me to hold her for another 30 minutes to see if she would transition a little better. After that 30 mintues with me she was really grunting and working extra hard so the NICU team decided it was best for Charlotte to head to the NICU for observation. The next 24 hours was a roller coaster. Charlotte ended up having premature lungs, pneumonia and pulmonary hypertension. She was intubated and put on high dose antibiotics. She spent 22 days in the NICU and came home December 20, 2010.

We've been home for 3 weeks now and things are going great. She is such a love.

I promise to be a better blogger and keep everyone updated!